tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-51657998220702884602024-02-08T04:42:13.389-08:00Live Life NowJennifer Fremionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11650691095184575423noreply@blogger.comBlogger145125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5165799822070288460.post-64571806208351097802021-04-11T14:46:00.010-07:002021-04-11T17:58:20.244-07:00While I Was Sleeping...<p><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">My eyes closed, living the part of what seemed like a never ending movie role. This dreamscape I would forever scroll. Someone else’s tale, I lived to hold. Unknowingly, generations old.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">The suffocating tidal wave of masks, illusions, barricades.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Dragons protecting the castle of lies. Fire flares within the cries.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Do this. Do that. Be this. Not that. A chameleon of puppetry. My pieces purposely misplaced and scattered. Surviving was all that mattered.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Empty. Fill. Full. With other people’s heartbroken shatters. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Numb. Be silent. Unseen. Sleep.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">The stretch, then the yawn.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">The night, then the dawn.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Breaking...</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Don’t settle, she said. Come with me. This is where I will set you free.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">New characters, a new play. New roles, a new stage. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Freedom. Breathe. All as you know it, will never be the same.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Then he stood before me...</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">His eyes. My reflection. The key to my soul. His eyes. Divine ceremony. The road map home. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">This is all just a dream...</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">As I returned to the old it no longer made sense. Yet the new, still anew, seemed delusional at best. This was all fun and games. Fantasy at play. Wake up to reality. Practicality, your alarm clock, anchoring you at bay. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Reality is your life guard. </span></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Risk is a cesspool of fate. You’ll drown if you think you can ever escape.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">A tug of war between the old whispers ensued. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">She said, trust and believe. We’ve been waiting for you.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Soon the old way seemed torn, run down and ragged. New patternings became the shattering of life long habits.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">42 years and countless generations...</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">I took the leap beyond fear and with no hesitation.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Suddenly the dragons turned to dragonflies. The caterpillar to butterfly. The Phoenix wings, from smoking ash, WE rise.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">She said, your entire life you believed magic was a dream to wake up from. When in fact, it’s your dream to wake up to. This has always been here, waiting for you. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">Welcome home all the parts of you that you’ve hidden away. Welcome home, welcome home, welcome home to stay.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">While I was sleeping the dream started to wake. Light can only be hidden. Shadows always will fade. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2">The morning yawn, like the first breath of a newborn child. As I opened my eyes she said, welcome home darling. It’s been quite a long while. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;">As always with love,</p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;">Jennifer</p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span> <span style="font-family: Calibri; text-align: center;">©2021 Jennifer </span><span>Fremion</span><span style="font-family: Calibri; text-align: center;">. All rights reserved.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 20.3px;"><span class="s2"></span><br /></p>Jennifer Fremionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11650691095184575423noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5165799822070288460.post-17663037506998821012015-06-01T03:58:00.000-07:002015-06-16T16:04:25.633-07:00Breath of Life, Breath of God<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
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As I awake, I see the
Sky, as my ever expanding mind.<o:p></o:p></div>
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As I awake, I see the
Sun, as the light of my own heart.<o:p></o:p></div>
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As I awake, I see the
Universe, as my intricately woven body. <o:p></o:p></div>
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As I awake, I see
myself, in the mirror of my Divine.<o:p></o:p></div>
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As I awake, I
realize, I am no longer dreaming.<o:p></o:p></div>
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As I awake, I realize
the greatest gift of all,<o:p></o:p></div>
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To be alive.<o:p></o:p></div>
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-Jennifer-<o:p></o:p></div>
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I recently taught a Kundalini yoga workshop on the 7 Steps
to Happiness as Taught by Yogi Bhajan.
During the sixth class, I talked about how our life is a gift (and I
believe this to the core of my being) and that the world is waiting for all of
us to share the gift of ourselves. So I
begged the question, “If the world is waiting on us to share our gifts, what exactly
are <i>we</i> waiting for?” This is a question I’ve asked myself in more
recent times when I become fearful and start to hold back or resist the flow of
life and its calling. It is the notion
that helps me push through most obstacles that come my way. I had no idea as I taught this class, that it
was actually preparing me for one of the biggest life shifts I have ever
experienced. <o:p></o:p></div>
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In the coming weeks, I was told that my grandma was not
doing well. That she was not responding
and that her passing could be anytime.
So the following day I went to see her.
I didn’t know what to expect when I walked into the nursing home. I was pleasantly surprised when I asked where
I could find her and the nurse pointed to my left and there was grandma raising
a ruckus in the commons area. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I walked over to her.
She looked so different from the last time I had seen her. She was in a special chair, unable to lift
her own body and was very confused. I
knelt down beside her and said, “Hi grandma! Do you know who I am? It’s Jenni!”
She paused and looked very closely at me and said, “My Jen?” I smiled and shook my head yes and told her
that I came to see her and spend some time with her. We talked and she was in and out, sometimes
making perfect sense and other times not making any sense at all. I stayed and sat with her until the nurses
were ready to take her back to her room.
Grandma looked at me and said, “Now I want you to get on the road before
it gets dark so I know you’ll get home safe.”
I gave her a kiss and hug and felt really good about the visit. I told my dad that she isn’t going
anywhere. I jokingly said, she is going
to live forever!<o:p></o:p></div>
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That all changed a few weeks later over Mother’s day
weekend. I went to see her that Friday
night with my parents. She would respond
to my dad only if he talked really loudly in her ear. But it was just a nod of the head or a mumbled
sound. We came back on Mother’s day and
my dad said prayers over her with her rosary.
This was a side of my dad I had never seen before. I’ve seen him cry only a few times in my
life. I don’t like to cry in front of
anyone. But I just couldn’t hold back my
tears. I knew grandma wanted to go and I
wanted her to be with my grandpa who has been gone for almost 30 years. She had been waiting for a long time. It was hard knowing that time would soon be
here. I looked at my mom and said, “I
noticed I have no patients scheduled [at work for the following week] on
Thursday. I think there is a reason for
that. “<o:p></o:p></div>
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I went to work on Monday and felt like I was in a fog. By Tuesday I was so emotional I didn’t know
how I would keep it together. I couldn’t
stop crying as hard as I tried. Then there was a point to where I didn’t want
to hold back the tears. I was losing
someone very special to me. So I just
allowed myself to cry no matter who it was in front of. But the days went on and there was minimal
change. Grandma was still holding on. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Tuesday was spent with a lot of my family
together in grandma's room. Family I hadn’t seen and talked to in a very long
time. I had a very special talk with my
aunt that I will hold close to me forever. Grandma was stable so we all went to
dinner. It was so nice to be
together. There was a point when we were
all in the room and then again as we were all sitting at dinner that it hit me
how incredible family really is. Family has always been important to me but
this was different. I heard stories from my dad, aunts and uncle about what they
remember growing up with my grandparents.
And I realized at that point that if it wasn’t for my grandparents, that
none of us would be here. I said to
myself, <i>look at</i> <i>what they created. This is
incredible!<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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Wednesday, still no change.
The remarkable thing is grandma at this point had nothing to eat or
drink for over a week. Then Thursday
came. For me something felt very
different when I woke up that day. I felt
very restless and uneasy. I don’t know
if it was because the Sunday before I had mentioned Thursday to my mom and that
day was finally here, but something was different. My youngest brother was coming through town
for the night before his annual golf outing with friends. I asked myself<i>, could grandma be waiting for all of us to be together, and I mean, all
of us?<o:p></o:p></i></div>
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I talked to my cousin Thursday morning and she said, “She’s
different. Her breathing is really fast
but it’s different.” Then I talked to
the nursing home and was told she was declining and that it would be
today. When I walked into the room I
knew that it would be anytime. I contacted
my mom and simply said, you guys need to get here. <o:p></o:p></div>
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One by one all of my family began to arrive to grandma’s
room. We all were sitting around her bed, waiting and waiting. My family prayed around her and in her final
moments we all became still. We all had
told her at some point it was ok to go.
But she kept hanging on. My aunt
was the last to arrive after making the drive up late that night. It was just moments after my aunt arrived
that I saw massive changes in grandma. I
have seen this many times working as a hospice nurse but never with my own
family. I felt an incredible peace. Each
breath became less and less. And then
she took her last breath. I was holding
her hand watching it all. I saw the
breath of life leave her. I saw the
breath of life for the first time as the breath of God. Everything made sense. She was at great peace and so was I. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Throughout this process after hearing story after story of
grandma’s life, I realized that this was a woman of great strength. This was a woman who lived one of the most
faith filled lives I’ve ever witnessed and that I have the great honor of being
able to call her my grandma. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Grandma and I had many talks over the last few years. She was always worried about me not being
Catholic or tied to any religion. In one
of our final great talks I told her that I was ok. I didn’t have a religion but that I have a
daily practice with yoga and meditation that keeps me centered. I knew she was trying hard to understand what
that meant but I also knew she didn’t quite get it. So the morning after she
passed, I woke to do my morning sadhana.
As I sat in front of my altar I tuned in and then I said to grandma, “This
is <i>my</i> love. This is <i>my</i>
way to God.” I continued with my
practice that morning. At the end I felt
this incredible peace and need to be very still. As I was sitting in silence her voice said
very loudly and very clear, “Wow! I had
no idea this is what you’ve been doing.”
I started laughing because of the exuberant joy in her voice. I felt her
joy as she said those words as if it was my own joy. Not only did I realize in that moment that she
understood what my practice was, her voice allowed me to hear that she was free
from the bindings of her own body. She
was no longer chained down to the pain she experienced on this Earth. She sounded so free, so liberated and so full
of joy. She then said, “I will be with
you from here on out.” And I have felt
her strength and her love with me ever since. <o:p></o:p></div>
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I can honestly say I’ve never felt a love like this. Grandma
has given me one of the greatest gifts in this life. She has expanded my ability to love in ways
that I never knew possible. It was
almost strange to me in the beginning that a death could help me to understand
the depths of love. But what I came to understand more deeply is the
extraordinary gift that is this life.
Our soul has been given this opportunity to remember God’s grace through
each experience of life. No matter how
much we’ve forgotten or how far away we’ve gone from love, each experience can
be an awakening. Each experience a
teacher. Sometimes we need to experience
death in order to understand how it is to truly live. Sometimes we need to step
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sadness in order to understand the heights of happiness and even more so joy. And
that all of life matters in ways that only God knows. But if our hearts are open, we can experience
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unknown and all of the possibilities of this new life. Our last breath
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Happy Mother's Day to all! Whether you are a mother, soon to be mother or hopeful mother, today is a celebration of the magnificence of motherhood. I come from a long line of magnificent mothers. So I wanted to write a tribute to my own mom and grandmother who have been steady examples of unconditional love, perseverance, strength, patience and wisdom. They are my rock and my best friends. To all mothers, we honor you today.<br />
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Today marks the one year anniversary for Spirit Launcher. It's hard to believe one year has already gone by. It seems like just yesterday, I posted my first article. When I began this blog I had no idea really what it was going to mean for my life. All I knew was the deepest part of myself was telling me that I had to write and that I had to write now. </div>
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I have met so many incredibly inspirational people through doing interviews. Their stories inspired me and so many others to remain steadfast in this journey called life. But even more so, Spirit Launcher has been one of my guides back to myself. These articles were not planned out for days, weeks or months. In the beginning I was writing daily articles. The words were spilling out of me. This has been not only my way of documenting my journey, but it has been lesson upon lesson through written word.</div>
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I have always said, I am merely the person sitting behind the computer typing. I used to say I don't know where all of this is coming from, when I would talk about my writing. Through this process I realized, it is coming from the most divine place, my heart. This is such a reminder that we all have our roles to play. We all have our parts. And we must, step up to that challenge, no matter what. We must always show up.</div>
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Although this all seems like yesterday, so much has happened in the last year. When I first began my intentional spiritual journey, I would receive messages while in meditation. So what has happened in the last year is, all of these messages have come true. I was told to start writing, now I am a writer. I was told to start teaching yoga, now I am teaching yoga. I was told to start lecturing on my writing, now I am preparing for my lectures. In the beginning I thought it was so strange to receive messages during meditation. I thought to myself, could this all be real? So I surrendered to the process. And yes, it is all more than real.</div>
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When I left my marriage almost four years ago, I thought that I would work as a nurse, remarry and possibly start a family. Never in a million years could I have imagined I was setting myself out on this great big adventure. My life has transformed to the creative, abundant bliss that is intended for all of us. One of my biggest heroes Joseph Campbell would always say, "The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are." It took me a long time to get here, but I am honored to be living this life that I have been granted. </div>
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We are the gift, through and through. All of our darkness, all of our light, that is our given path. As I've written in another text, shadows will fade, light can only be hidden. I have come out of the shadows. I have remained the glue when all seemed to be broken. And I have won the fight. My teacher Gabby Bernstein says so beautifully, "The moment we get out of our own way, miracles happen." And she is absolutely right. </div>
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I look around all day and everyday seeing and believing in miracles, because I have lived out so many already. It doesn't matter how disconnected we become from our own hearts. There is always a way back home. There is a path of discovery for everyone that will lead us right back to our own hearts. That divine spark within us all. This path isn't just for "the lucky ones". We all have our fortunes. Life is happening right now, in this moment. So start living it to its fullest. </div>
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One of my favorite articles from Spirit Launcher is called "The Wisdom of Our Heart". It was one of the first articles I posted for this site. In it I wrote,"This blog is what my book has become, a launching pad for my heart. To share everyday lessons about life, living and giving. If we are hurting, reach our heart out to someone who is hurting. If we are joyful, reach our heart out to someone who needs joy. If we are loving, reach our heart out to someone who needs love. Through the wisdom of our own hearts, the chain of love cannot be broken. If there are no holes, no one can fall through the cracks. If we are whole, we are together in the strength of a nation that can change the entire world." Almost one year later, I still mean that from the bottom of my heart. <br />
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I catch myself saying all of the time, life just doesn't get any better than this. And then it does. Our dreams are our vision boards to life. We are given dreams. We are then given countless opportunities to do something with them. They are there for a reason. We are not meant to wake up from dreams. We are meant to live out our dreams. They are our contributions to this world, this life, and this love that eternally connects us all. We are bliss, we are beauty, we are soul, we are love. We are all pieces of this great big puzzle called life. Through following our dreams, we find our perfectly placed part.<br />
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Thank you to all of my teachers for your love and support through this journey. Life is good and it just keeps getting better. I am thankful for today and passionately optimistic for tomorrow. Now is the time to be seen and heard. Let life be your puzzle piece. Your piece to the great big whole.<br />
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The passage below came to me after reading <i>The Bhagavad Gita </i>for my yoga teacher training course. The message of this sacred text moved me passage by passage. It is truth in sweetness and strength. It is courage and bravery leading us back to our own hidden power. It is the essence of the journey of life.</div>
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Writing this passage word by word was a reminder that we are Divine representation, no matter how we look at it. No matter what or who we have faith in that is larger than ourselves, we are the representation here on Earth. We were born with purpose. We come bearing a great message. With every breath taken, every word spoken, and every thought thought, always remember that. To think before we speak. To think before we act. And to even think before we think. Not only are we Divine representation, we are in fact co-creators in this Divine dance called life. We are an expression of God or that force that is greater than ourselves. We are the spark that is ignited by the eternal flame.</div>
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My Hatha yoga teacher training is coming to an end. We are three weeks away from our last class. Yesterday for me was a milestone. I taught my yoga class as part of my final practicum. My goal for the class wasn't to be perfect. My goal was to show up and to show up fully. I wanted to give my class not just a yoga class but an experience, as so many of my teachers have done for me along my path.</div>
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The evening before my class, I felt the shutter of fear creeping in. I could feel the energy settling in my stomach and then rising to my heart. This is the moment that so many times in my life has brought me to a complete stop. I would feel fear and then run like the wind in the opposite direction. I've had more than my fair share of missed opportunities because of it. But my perception has changed over the course of the last two years that enabled me in this moment and so many others, to realize that fear is the beginning of a break through. </div>
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My Hatha teacher said something in one of our first classes about her past struggles with panic attacks. And how she realized while in the middle of an attack, that it is just energy that needs to rise up and be released. That lesson resonated with me and has stuck with me since then. I had an experience during meditation a while back that created a rush of energy that was so strong in my body, as I was sitting in complete stillness my pulse was racing so quickly and forcefully, I could feel it in my ears. I felt this incredible rising up of energy and then a release at the end. My life shifted at that very moment and has never been the same.</div>
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That anymore is how I view fear. Fear is just part of the process of following our heart. Following what it is we are being called to do. It is a new experience for us and a lot of times out of our comfort zone, so why wouldn't we feel an energetic reaction to that?</div>
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Yesterday I started repeating affirmations like, the Universe knows I am capable, therefore I am capable. I surrender to the process. My morning meditations have been dedicated to surrender. I've been practicing the Kundalini Tratakum meditation with my morning sadhana for the last 30 days or so. For those of you not familiar with this meditation, you sit and stare into the lights of the eyes of Yogi Bhajan. One of the most, if not the most powerful meditations I have practiced to date. His grace is with me everyday and his teachings have brought me back to life. So in times of surrender or uncertainty, I turn to him. And he never fails to help me find the strength within to fear not and move forward.</div>
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I had visions of what my yoga practicum would be for months. So to finally bring those visions to life was pure magic for me. One of my favorite Yogi Bhajan sayings is, "If you want to learn something, read about it. If you want to understand something, write about it. If you want to Master something, teach it." I have read that quote over and over again for the past year. For some reason just recently I realized that has been the path back to my heart. Two years ago I began reading books from spiritual leaders and could not read fast enough. I then was called to start writing. And now, my journey with teaching has just begun. What a beautiful realization to come to.</div>
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As I stepped onto my mat for my practicum, I felt completely calm. As I was talking about the intention at the beginning of the practice, I was doing just what I was teaching. I was letting go. I was surrendering to that moment in my life. I didn't try to rush. I remained present by taking snap shot moments in my mind as often as I could. But most of all, I showed up and I showed up fully, just as I intended to do.</div>
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Teaching yoga is still very new to me. I am so grateful to all of my teachers for what I have learned and will continue to learn on this path. It is about sharing what we have learned both on and off of our mats. And rather creating a synchronicity between the two. So our yoga mat, actually becomes our walk of life.</div>
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I must say, even though we are just seven days into 2014, it is by far my most favorite year yet. The beginning of this new year has been so special to me. It has been the first new year that I have really and truly been able to embrace fully this new life. </div>
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I had plans to celebrate New Year's in Chicago and the day before we were to leave the plans fell through. I had a feeling this was going to happen. As the plans unfolded, details started to not work out one by one. When the final detail fell through I realized that Chicago was not where I was to be. That there was a bigger and better plan in store. I had friends asking me to join them, but I was being called to do something else.</div>
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This New Year's was to be my time to set a firm, unwavering intention for the year ahead. And that was precisely what I did. On New Year's Eve before I went to bed, I wrote down my intention for the year on an index card, lit a candle, and went into deep meditation. The experience is something I will never forget. There was a rush of energy consuming me. And when I came out of the meditation, something had shifted.</div>
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On New Year's day, I was able to join my yoga instructor and a very crowded room of people for a Sankulpa practice. It was the perfect companion to my meditation practice the night before. I wasn't really sure what to expect from this practice. My instructor explained the word Sankulpa, broken down<i>, San</i> means "with" and<i> kulpa</i> means "Divine". I then realized I was connecting with my Divine through this practice and at that point, there was no place else I would have rather been.</div>
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One of the things that I loved the most about this experience is that my instructor set the new year off by giving an offering. This was a donation only based class. There was no set fee. She was giving the Sankulpa practice freely, and allowing us to start off the year giving freely by making a donation. All donations went to her foundation for people dealing with cancer and chronic pain. What an amazing feeling to be involved in a community of giving.</div>
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At the end of the practice we all went around the room and shared our intention in order to stamp it into the Universe. The intention that I set for this year is to fulfill my dreams, my purpose. What the Universe has unraveled for me so far has been incredible. I wanted nothing more than to embrace what I have been sent to do in this life. And for the first time I am actually making it happen. For the first time there is nothing and no one that can stop me in my tracks.</div>
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I look around at my support system today and realize that I am my biggest cheerleader. Although I have wonderful support from others, I am the one that holds myself accountable for the authentic life that I wish to live. I feel Divinely led in everything that I do. One of my favorite things on my vision board is a quote that says, "Rise then shine". Over the last few years that has been my biggest accomplishment.</div>
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So this year I will be unwavering in my journey to fulfill my purpose. All of the tools that I have learned to create a miraculous life have become my way of life. I will heed each call and be wide awake to take in the lessons that come my way. I will continue to live a life of knowing, growing and surrender. I don't need to force any of it. I will bow to each blessing in gratitude and stillness. And with eyes wide open, see the unfolding of my life's call each step of the way.</div>
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As we approach the end of this year and move forward into the next, I can't help but look back at all of the daily miracles that have occurred in my life. This past year has been the beginning of many new things in my life, as well as a continuation and deepening of all of the things I have learned to be so grateful for. I've been able to witness my own growth, breath by breath, moment by moment and day by day. I've learned to let go and welcome all that is to come. </div>
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Looking back at how far I have come in just a few years takes my breath away. The struggle and fight that once was daily life for me, has now cleared the path for my fulfilled purpose. What and who surrounds me now is night and day to my surroundings just a couple of years ago. The last year I have grown to understand and develop the tool of manifesting. The art of manifesting the life that I knew was mine to be had. I just needed to have an understanding of how to get there.</div>
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I made my first vision board a few weeks ago. It is the summation of everything that I already have in my life and want to strengthen and also the things that I desire to have that haven't quite arrived yet. I begin each day with looking at all of the pictures and I end my day the same way. I am reminded of how grateful I am for all of my teachers in this life and all of the blessings that each day brings.</div>
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I am grateful for what I already have, but also for all of the changes that are yet to come. This next year for me is full of new and out of my comfort zone kind of things. As I have realized, stepping out of my comfort zone is what opens my heart more and more and allows supreme gifts into the present moment. Although I am still in my Hatha yoga teacher training until March, in just a few weeks, I will be traveling a distance and leaving the comforts of my own home to venture out for an additional eight month teacher training. This practice in particular is my calling. It is my breath of life. It is the very practice that called me to be a teacher. It is the practice that led me back to my Self and to my destiny. </div>
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I can't even begin to imagine all of the wonderful blessings that are to come within this next year. I do know that they all will be welcomed with open arms. And I can measure what is to come by those blessings that have already shown themselves. The end of this year is very different from last year. Although last year had its own sparkle, this past year has been so much more brilliant, vibrant and alive. Probably because that is the exact feeling I have each and every single day.</div>
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Thank you for allowing me to share my journey with you. Spirit Launcher has been a record of my story and growth through time and the process of my practice. When this journey for me started a couple of years ago I was given three messages during three consecutive meditation practices. The first message was, to "be alive in life", the second, "you will heal many" and the third, to "start writing". The moment I began to write, all of these messages became my way of life. I cannot thank you all enough for your kind words and support.</div>
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For this next year I will dare to dream bigger and dare to dare bigger. I will continue my journey for more of the truest of love, the stillness of peace, the divine connection to everything and everyone, and even more so the deeper findings of myself. And to remember each step of the way, the bigger the gamble the greater the reward, the longer the wait, the bigger the love and to never forget the sacred space we hold within our own hearts and our promise of purpose to share that sacred space with each other.</div>
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Have a safe, blessed, healthy and happy new year Spirit Launchers! I can't wait to share our new year's experiences together!</div>
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As you all may have noticed I've taken some time away from Spirit Launcher to focus on some other things. It is so good however, to be back. The past few weeks have brought some serious learning, gratitude, acceptance and ultimately understanding under my belt. My yoga teacher training has accelerated my spiritual practice to a whole new level. </div>
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We just finished the book, Value of Values by Swami Dayananda Saraswati. This book to me was so special and so significant in reflection of my constant awakening in life. This book was a life review of sorts for me. It's incredible to see the comparisons in each section of my old way of being followed by the new tools and living techniques that I have adopted and have been implementing in my everyday life.</div>
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One thing that he discussed in this book is our non-separateness from the Divine. And that we are in fact that Divine power in human form. When I first ventured on my conscious spiritual journey this was one of the first concepts that I was introduced to by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I wrote about this in my article, The Extension. This very concept was a game changer for me because I never acknowledged or knew how to accept that spark within me. That spark of love for creation of the desires that were implanted in me. Understanding that it is my piece of the Divine that is my promise of purpose in this life, still gives me butterflies just thinking about it to this day. </div>
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I've been blessed with the opportunities to share with the world what I love to do most, and that is taking care of people. I get to care for patients in my nursing career. I get to care for my clients when they walk through the door of my spa. And with yoga, I've learned to take care of myself and that Divine spark within. Eventually, these will be teachings I can share with my own clients when I expand my business. This practice has deepened some of my relationships and it has allowed me the strength to let go of the ones that no longer serve me. </div>
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It is so interesting to me to examine how my life has unfolded from my past and to see bits of my future ventures as they come to me in sparks of inspiration. One incredible gift that was given to me happened during a recent Kirtan concert that I attended with my mom. I talked in one of my very first articles called, My Awakening, of how music was such an integral part of my life as far back as my earliest memories. I dreamt about writing and performing music professionally but my fear of failure stopped me in my tracks. As I wrote that article I thought that desire was long gone. And then I attended the concert. This particular Kirtan performer had been introduced to me during a <a class="g-profile" href="http://plus.google.com/100414254221108544744" target="_blank">+Gabrielle Bernstein</a> lecture over a year ago. I downloaded this particular song and listened to it over and over again. When I found out he was performing at my yoga school I was in complete shock.</div>
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Not only had this particular song been a huge part of my healing in the last year, I was going to be able to see him perform and take a workshop with him the following day. Funny how your destiny will meet you at the most perfect time, every time. When the concert began I wanted to be singing along with everyone else. The fear of resistance settled in. As much as I wanted to join in I felt the fear welling up in my chest and throat. I didn't judge it. I felt it, acknowledged it and accepted it as rising for a reason. There got to be a point where I didn't feel the urge to just want to sing, it became that I had to. So I did. I heard my own voice sing in front of other people releasing that fear. Although I knew the premise behind the concert was to call onto the Divine, I've never felt the Divine within me to that degree. I am forever changed because of that night and the workshop I attended the next day.</div>
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I believe life meets us exactly where we are. I am so proud of my own bravery during my own walk within. I no longer judge myself for my fears and doubts. I fearlessly allow what needs to come up show itself, in order for me to walk through the other side of it. When I use the word fearless, I don't mean I don't feel the resistance attempting to hold me back. I mean that I acknowledge it, knowing that I must walk through it and not allow it to restrain me from what it is I'm being called to do. I've learned to be fearless whether it be through baby steps or leaps and bounds. Often it is those baby steps that lead me to those leaps and bounds.</div>
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My walk within has allowed me to reach the Divinity that is my spirit, that is my heart and soul. It has allowed me to deal with compassion towards myself and to reach out with compassion to others in a way that is beyond words. I realize that I am a writer but my actions must speak louder. When we look within, we reach a state of loving grace and offer an extension of our hearts to the world around us. We can clear our path from all things and people who cloud our way. Everyone and everything becomes our teachers in order to bring forth what is within us that needs to be released whether it be love or fear. </div>
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The walk within has taught me that I am never alone. The Divine presence within me is my constant companion through this life. My guide that offers intuitive intervention in everything I do. As I speak to my heart, I honor the Divinity inside. As I honor that Divinity, nothing is lost, all can be gained, and all will be what is meant to be in every given moment.</div>
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The power of intention is one of my favorite things to talk and write about because it is such a prominent daily tool for me. Every day when I wake up I set an intention. That intention is always of service to others. I pray that I may be of help to as many people as possible throughout my day. My nursing career as I've talked about many times, is an absolute expression of service. How can I help? and how can I serve?, are my two favorite questions to send out to the Universe before my day even begins.</div>
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The subject of intention came up the other night in my yoga teacher training. I thought this was so interesting. I've been feeling major pings of anxiety every time I go to speak about my experiences in class. Last week the anxiety came to a head. I know what I want to say, but what comes out, sometimes I'm not sure if it even makes any sense. But as we came to the last alter for discussion, I forced myself through the fear and just spoke. I didn't focus so much on what I was saying, I just needed to get back to the basics and just speak in front of my class mates. I needed to push myself through that discomfort in order to get to the other side of it. As I finished talking, a release came over my body. Shortly after, we did an awareness meditation and I literally felt energy rushing from the top of my head. The anxiety was gone. It was a really crazy amazing experience.</div>
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As I was driving to this week's class I thought to myself, I am letting go of all that doesn't serve me. I felt a calm come over me. As we stepped to the foot of our mats at the beginning of our practice our instructor asked us to set an intention. This intention was big for me. I stood in silence and "finding strength through letting go" came to my mind. That was my intention for my practice. Not only mentally did I feel strong, but physically I was doing postures and movements I didn't realize I was capable of doing. There was such a grace to my practice I was in awe of the transformation. And all from setting and focusing on that intention. My instructor continued to bring us back to that intention throughout the practice. </div>
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Later during the lecture she began to talk about the importance of intention in our practice and as teachers to introduce the power of intention to our students. She then asked us to share our intention by using one word. I was a little thrown off by just being able to use one word. Because I was letting go in order to find strength. So I quietly mumbled strength, not really sure if I should have said letting go instead. We continued the class and then ended with a restorative yoga session. At the end of the practice my instructor again went around the room and asked us to share our intention. I again stated strength. But this time it was with unwavering confidence.</div>
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Through all of my teachings and practice I have always been taught that we have everything we need inside of us. It is a matter of unveiling those things in order to bring them to the surface. This was a perfect example of doing just that. Not only am I feeling physically stronger, I feel mentally and emotionally stronger in everything that I do. I don't beat myself up if I'm struggling over something. I release it to the Universe in order to see the lesson, work towards that lesson and await the answer and the solution.</div>
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I don't need to know, be and see everything right now. I can faithfully await for life to be revealed to me. I am not just practicing yoga. I am practicing and fully participating in life. No matter what comes my way, I am learning. Intention creates a focus. It gives a reminder of what is going on in the now. What we are to see, experience and contribute now and how that will effect the world around us. What we intend to contribute to the world will come back to us in waves of infinite new possibilities.</div>
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Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers! Today's Meditation is such a vital aspect of our daily lives and daily practice. I would like to explore more in depth, intention. Setting intentions for our day and throughout our day, gives a clear extension of energy sourcing from our hearts and going straight into the Universe. Intention helps us to stay focused. Intention is also the art of manifesting. It is clearly stating what exactly it is that we need. What do we bring into our own lives everyday? How does that compare to what it is we want and need to be bringing into our lives? Practicing intention helps us to see how interconnected we truly are to everyone and everything.<br />
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So let us join together today in community and set our own intention. It can be anything. It can be asking to be more patient, kind, compassionate, vocal, present...the list could go on and on. Just pick one intention and focus on it throughout the day. Notice how the flow of your day changes from if you hadn't set an intention at all.<br />
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Setting an intention gives us focus. It also helps us align with our spirit and surrender to the will of the Universe. A quote from Kris Carr that I love from this past Super Soul Sunday episode is, "When we truly embrace acceptance, that is when our body exhales and can begin healing." Let's all join together and let our bodies exhale to whatever it is we may need in this moment and throughout our day.<br />
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Sit in a comfortable cross legged position. You may want to light a single candle before you. Let that represent the light that is within you. Close your eyes and take long deep breaths in and out. Focus on any tension that may be present in your body at that moment and breathe into that space. Focus in this moment on letting go of anything that no longer serves you.<br />
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Choose a firm intention, do not waiver. That intention is your mantra throughout today's meditation. As you breathe, continue to repeat that intention. If your mind strays just bring your focus back to your intention. Find your power of purpose for the day through this meditation. Carry this meditation with you. Live within this meditation. Let the day unfold before you. Sit in this space as long as you need.<br />
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As always with love,</div>
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I talked in my last article about the practice of non-attachment. It's been showing up in my life quite frequently. And yesterday was no exception. I was asked by a friend to teach her how to begin a yoga practice. We talked over dinner the other night about how unhappy she is not only with her body, but in the way she handles certain situations in life. She is wanting to not be so high strung and more open to everything. </div>
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I prepared over the weekend a practice of meditation and postures primarily focusing on hip and heart openers. Knowing my friend carries unresolved emotional pain daily from her childhood, I wanted to design a practice that would benefit her the most. So she could see the release not only physically, but also emotionally that the practice of yoga could offer her. </div>
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As I was preparing a playlist for the session, my friend contacted me and said she wasn't feeling well and wanted to know if we could meet later in the day. I knew that probably wouldn't work with my schedule. Even though I had spent quite a bit of time preparing, I didn't think anything of the change in plans. That in itself created a funny reaction in my body. That funny reaction was silence. I didn't have disappointment over the cancellation. It was the silence of accepting the outcome of the situation. I knew that another time would be more appropriate for either her or me or both of us for this practice. It is the newness of no reaction as things change that continues to arise for me multiple times within the same day anymore. I can plan all I want. But as I always say, the Universe's plan is just what I need.</div>
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I looked at the time and it was almost time for Super Soul Sunday to begin. I turned on the television not knowing the author Mark Nepo that was being featured. As soon as the interview began, I realized why my plans had been changed. I needed to hear and receive the messages in this episode. Nepo talked about his own awakening that stemmed from his cancer diagnoses over twenty years ago. How his life changed in an instant and the blessing that diagnosis was to his life. Now his books are on my must read wish list. </div>
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He said many quotes that brought me to tears. He is a poet as well, so it was no surprise he could word things so beautifully. He stated at one point that it isn't the thing that breaks us open, it is what that thing breaks us open to. That resonated so deeply with me. My marriage was the very thing that broke me down. Yet it was the very thing that led to my divorce that broke me open and has allowed me to live a new and better life. </div>
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This got me to reflect on the last three years but also my conscious shift in perceptions that I began over one year ago. To think of my past and the constant chatter in my mind. In the beginning of this journey of how desperately I wanted to be somewhere and someone else. The evolution of my own Self that has taken place has been an incredible blessing. And an unbreakable one at that. </div>
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I no longer look at hardships and challenges as punishments. I hear the lessons loud and clear in everything I do. I look at all experiences as victories. And I see victories as celebrations of faithfulness. It is in silence that I found my voice again. It is in peace that I found my own love that I so desperately searched for. It is in grace that I found the hand of my Divine that holds me eternally. </div>
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I am so grateful for the pain that broke me because it sent me on the great search for my Self. I didn't know the person I was in my marriage. I had to break my life down in order to figure out how I became that person and also to figure out how to not go down that same road ever again. </div>
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I feel the shifts in my life as they are happening. They appear to be happening at greater magnitude and with greater force. I wonder if it is the shifts that are greater or if it is me that is awakening more in the presence of them? I feel a connection with everyone and everything that strengthens moment to moment. I see miracles happening at the speed of light, yet by my being present, they seem to be in slow motion. There is a stillness that follows me everywhere I go. That stillness allows me to see the big picture and to heed the call of my own purpose. It is in stillness that I receive direction and feel the guided hands of direction in everything that I do. My mantra through life is, "I am present, so I will receive". </div>
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The last few weeks for me have been extraordinary. I have been recovering from an upper respiratory infection that has still not completely left. That being said, I've never been so grateful to be out of commission. As you may already be aware from reading my articles, I am a firm believer that we are being led by a force greater than ourselves and that everything happens with purpose. We may not understand that purpose from the get go, but eventually if we are wide awake enough to see it, it will show itself.</div>
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We were assigned in my yoga course to choose a yama. Yamas are disciplines concerning our dealings with society and the world. Examples are: non-violence, non-stealing, chastity, non-attachment, and truthfulness. After reading through the examples our instructor wanted us to share the yama we would focus on for two weeks. I thought and thought but none of them were speaking to me at the time. So as I've learned over the last while, to just sit in silence and let it show itself to me. And did it ever!</div>
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The very next morning on Wednesday, I woke up with a sore throat and felt terrible. I knew I was getting sick. I had an incredibly busy week loaded with clients. I feared for only a second about the loss of money in having to cancel so many appointments and trying to reschedule those cancelled appointments to an already overly booked schedule. Then I said to myself, "I am sick and need to take care of myself. The Universe has my back and will sort all of this out. I am letting go and letting the Universe do her thing!" By Saturday I was feeling well enough to keep those appointments. I worked a full day and felt on the mend. Sunday morning however, was a different story.</div>
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Sunday morning I knew I was getting really sick and that I would be down for awhile. My birthday was coming up and I had people traveling out of town for planned dinners and celebrations. Again, I just let it all go. I knew no matter how much I had planned, the Universe always has a better plan. So I just went with it. Later in the week I was starting to get my pep back. Friday morning was when the entire experience began to sum itself up for me. I asked if I could observe a Tibetan Yoga class. That was when I had the most incredible conversation with the instructor. Being so moved and inspired from that conversation, I was able to go home and reflect on the last couple of weeks.</div>
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For as far back as I can remember, I have clung to outcomes of situations. In order for me to put my heart on the line, I wanted a guaranteed outcome. And if that didn't happen, I would think I was being punished. I would feel sorry for myself and become angry and bitter. When I first moved out on my own three years ago, finances were my obsession. I was always feeling like I was lacking and that what "little" money I had would be pulled out from under my feet and my life would come crashing down. Time and time again I would worry. But in the end, it always ended up being just fine. I worked very hard only to keep my head barely above water, but I always had exactly what I needed.</div>
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The above example has happened so many times in the last few years that when I started delving into my spiritual practice I felt an abundance of strength because I knew I was being held up and taken care of. As one of my favorite yogis says, "Keep up and you will be kept up". This is the truth. I never doubt this for a second now because I have lived it enough to know.</div>
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So the yama that revealed itself to me was non-attachment. I realized that I have practiced this enough and have converted faithfully within the practice of just knowing. I don't have crazy expectations anymore. I don't need to try to force outcomes. I don't need to barter with the Universe for what "should" be. I accept what is. And what I need I already have. For two weeks I was not attached to any of the outcomes, loss of finances, and possible cancellation of plans. And what I got in return was abundance. Abundance of well being, gratitude, appreciation, love and yes, financial security. I've learned in faithfully letting go, I see the true abundance that is always in front of me.</div>
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The article from Monday, <i>One Year Later</i>, was a letter of gratitude to the Universe. It was an acknowledgment of my practice. No matter what has fallen apart, the cracks in all that is broken are simply a separation of parts and pieces to create room to grow within the new space between. It is taking what we have learned and using it to create something better. I have had a lot of breakage, but from that I have practiced a new way of being. Our past, until we learn a more expansive way of being, will always be in our present. When our intention is to breathe through the dust and rubble, when all settles, we see the new view that is before us.</div>
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How have you learned to let go and just accept what is? What yama is calling to you? How do you see it show up in your life? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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Happy Meditation Wednesday Spirit Launchers! We all have such busy lives these days don't we?!? At the end of the day, how do we really keep the hamster wheel turning without completely falling off from the fast pace of it all?<br />
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I had a recent conversation with a friend who was explaining to me how her anxiety has gotten the best of her. When I asked her what could be causing it, she paused and looked at me responding, "I really have no idea why it's gotten so bad." She has been taking medication to attempt to ease the discomfort, but it isn't working. I've talked to her many times about the benefits of yoga and meditation. Although she is open to the idea of the practice, she instead decided to make an appointment with her doctor to adjust her medications. What do we do and what do we turn to when life becomes too much?<br />
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For me, when I am overwhelmed, the answer always is to be still. To be still, listen and know everything will be okay. Nothing is too big to handle. So I wanted to dedicate today's meditation to our busy daily lives. This is such a simple tool that we can interject into any part of our day. When the tightness in our chest, shoulders and neck starts to rise. When our breath becomes quick and uneasy. When life seems to be piling up on us and within us, this is a tool we can all go to.<br />
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So let's sit in a comfortable cross legged position. Relax our hands, palms facing up on our legs. Close our eyes. Take a series of long deep breaths in and out. Feel what exactly it is our bodies are telling us at this very moment. Do we feel tightness, pain, discomfort anywhere? Focus on that feeling and then breathe it out of your body. Continue to breathe deeply.<br />
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The mantra for this meditation is simple. You will repeat the words "So Hum", meaning "I am that". Mantra helps us maintain focus, but also helps us to call in from the deepest part of ourselves the connective line of the Universe for help. As you inhale, say in your mind, "So". As you exhale, say in your mind, "Hum". Repeat this mantra over and over for as long as you wish. The longer you sit within the meditation the more beneficial it becomes.<br />
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When you finish, take note of the changes you feel in your physical body as well as your emotional body. What changes do you notice? How can you use this mantra as a back pocket reminder throughout your day to find your own stillness no matter how big the challenge you are facing?<br />
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May your day be filled with love and peace.</div>
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As always with love,</div>
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I just celebrated my 35th birthday one week ago and what a difference one year makes. Although I was fighting through an upper respiratory infection and extreme exhaustion for two weeks leading up to my birthday, it was still the best celebration I have ever had. Now there was no big party per say, just separate gatherings with family and friends. Besides the gatherings, there were celebrations and surprises along the way. The first of which being the day before my actual birthday. A rather large gift came to me early.</div>
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I signed up to observe a Tibetan yoga class. Instead of observing the class, I was blessed with the opportunity to have an hour and a half long conversation with the instructor Lea. She shared not only her own practice, but the story within her practice and how she was led to do what it is she is doing today. Teaching and leading a life focused on love, service and compassion. The very life I've been consciously practicing for the last year and a half. The similarities of her story and mine touched the deepest part of my soul. It was as if the Universe was speaking to me through her and letting me know I was heading in the right direction in life. As supportive as my family and friends are of my spiritual practice, none of them are practicing to the degree of my own commitment. I get smiles and comments like, "Oh that's great!" and then a quick change of subject within the conversation. And I understand it and accept it for what it is. But I've been longing to have people to share my own story and experiences with, that understand my goals and intentions. People who I can share and learn more about the philosophies that have led me to where I am today. People who truly get what it is that I'm doing. </div>
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We talked about the philosophies behind the Tibetan practice. One by one Lea listed what the practice focuses on and entails and it lined up with the spiritual journey I've been setting out on for over a year now. I became rather overwhelmed as she continued to unravel the focus of this particular practice. It resonated so deeply with my daily life's practice I was almost speechless. My heart was so full by the end of the conversation I was brought to tears. I thanked her for all that she had taught me but quickly left the studio because I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I cried all the way home and for awhile once I reached home. It was the first time I was able to share space with someone who I felt really understood what I'm trying to do with my life. The constant gratitude and the constant need to stand in my truth and be who it is that I am intending to be. To live to be in service of myself and my own gifts and to bring those gifts to be of service to others. Again, what a difference one year can make.</div>
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Last October I was just edging into my spiritual practice. It was the following month that a meditation from Deepak Chopra broke my heart open and changed me forever. The quest through this meditation was to see God in everyone for one day. I've talked in other articles about this experience. As a nurse, this was the perfect assignment. And that night's shift I was presented with that perfect assignment. It was my last night on the oncology unit and I was given an impossible assignment. I had six patients, no assistant on the floor to help, all of my patients had uncontrolled pain, nausea and vomiting. It was complete chaos. Yet, through all of it, I felt I was the calm in this perfect storm. All of the chaos, however, wasn't my real assignment. I had a patient that was a little elderly man and I was told by the nurse I was taking over for, that he was a grumpy little old man at that. He had been yelling at the staff incessantly all day. I knew at that moment that HE, was my assignment for the night. I dedicated the large majority of my time to him that entire shift. And by the end of the shift I knew that all he really wanted was to know that he wasn't just another patient. He wanted to know that he meant something. That he was seen and heard and that he was treated like a person, not just a room number. </div>
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By the end of my shift he looked at me, pointed at me shaking his finger and said, "Whether I live or whether I die, I will always remember you. I will never forget you. You are one of the good ones." Our eyes locked and nothing could take me away from that moment. My heart was so full. I said in return, "I will never forget you either." This experience forever changed me. For the next few days I couldn't stop thinking about the moment when our eyes locked. I realized I saw God in him. And that wasn't just a human to human conversation. That was a spirit to spirit conversation. One year later, that experience is just as prevalent in my life as it was the very day it happened.</div>
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I can't quite explain fully how incredibly different I feel today compared to just one year ago. But what I can explain is that I've chiseled away at my heart blocks. The weight of the world I no longer carry on my shoulders. I take one day at a time, one lesson at a time, one moment at a time, and I continue to be wide awake enough to see it all as it is happening. A few years ago, I had completely lost myself. I forgot how to love, how to have fun and how to live life. I had to rewire my head to my heart. I had to reconnect to a power greater than myself. And I had to learn to believe again that life was to be lived in a manner of greatness. Not a second is to be wasted on worry, judgement, or doubt.</div>
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Yoga came into my life for a reason. First, it was a physical practice that brought mental relaxation. Then something happened and it became a directional way of life. Now that I am fully studying yogic texts, I am finding within them, messages that I have previously received in meditations. Nudges of guidance I've been receiving all along the way. My faith has grown so much stronger than anyone else's doubt. That subtle voice inside has been with me always. I've released the shadows that deafened me to that voice. I've shed light on my own pathway to this incredible life that is set out before me and within me. And I am so grateful for it all.</div>
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Where are you one year later in your own life? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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Jennifer Fremionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11650691095184575423noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5165799822070288460.post-20824781513715637482013-10-16T03:47:00.000-07:002013-10-16T03:47:22.148-07:00Trust Meditation<br />
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Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers! It is time yet again for our midweek meditation. Today is the day we all come together sharing in the same intention of finding peace, love and acceptance in others and in ourselves. When we join together as one with a shared intention, miracles occur. So look for the miracles in today. They truly are everywhere.<br />
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This meditation was inspired by one of my classmates last night. We were discussing a particular section of reading and she asked the question, <i>How do you accept someone treating you poorly? </i>I've written many articles discussing this very topic. This was something I struggled for many years with myself. So I sat and listened to her try to talk her way through the situation, knowing that the answer would come to her when she was ready to hear it. The answer lies inside of her. Only she knows the details of the situation. I could see her struggle in trusting in the answer she knew to be right for her and what she wanted to do.<br />
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Trust is Faith. Knowing that we are abundantly held in this Universe is the very strength that can help us march forward as the peaceful warriors we are meant to be. So today we will focus on trust. Trusting in our Faith, our inner knowing and guidance. Trust is the key to unlock the door to any struggle we may be facing at the moment.<br />
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Sit in a comfortable seated position. Take a few long deep breaths in. If you like, light a few candles before you along with listening to soft music. Set a peaceful scene. This meditation will take you deep within your own heart. So let's begin.<br />
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Continue to breathe deeply until you have reached a state of relaxation. Then breathe naturally. Think of whatever it is that is bothering you, that you are questioning, or simply searching for answers. Then release that to the Universe. Continue to sit in stillness. Let the thoughts move in and out of your mind. Do not attempt to control them. Once the thoughts have settled, allow yourself to talk directly to your heart. </div>
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Ask your heart, "What is it that I need to know?"</div>
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Just be patient and trust. You will receive the answer at the most perfect time.</div>
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<i>May your day be filled with love and light always.</i></div>
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Namaste</div>
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<span style="text-align: left;">We enter into each new moment of our lives with a sense of bravery. It is in our most honest moments, that we can put all masks aside, let all barriers crumble to the ground, and let our original Self shine. We have different roles with different people in our lives. I've learned that in the moments that I shine within my own light, whether expressing it through words, my energy and efforts or my internal dialogue, everything that I do is better if I stay true to my Self.</span></div>
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Spirit Launcher was a huge venture for me. I was told in meditation to "start writing". So I began writing my first book. But that just wasn't enough. I felt the biggest force within me telling me to get my writing out now. Not to wait until my book was complete. This has been such a shift for me in everything that I do. I didn't know where Spirit Launcher would lead me. I just knew I had to do it. This has been a test of my own vulnerability and faith. The message I had to send was more important than what any critic may have to say about the work. And as professor Brene Brown states so candidly in her lectures on her own experience with critics and vulnerability, "If you're not out in the arena getting your butt kicked everyday, I don't want to hear what you have to say." In other words, if you're not brave enough to put your heart on the line and go where it's leading you to go, you really don't have a valid opinion about anyone who is out there actually doing it. When we are in our own creative force, we support and love others. And through love, we forget how to judge. You can always sense where critical people are in their own lives. And it's usually not where they want to be at all.</div>
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Since I've started Spirit Launcher and putting my heart on the line with every article, I've had perfect strangers contact me about the material and I've had new and old relationships shift. Most have been extremely positive. There have been a few people who are visibly uncomfortable with me being honest. With me putting my heart out there about where I've been and where I am now. The heart of the matter is where I live everyday. It influences every thought and every action. Yet for some, the heart of the matter is the scariest place of all. Somewhere along the lines, some people have convinced themselves that going through life pretending everything is "perfect" is what we are supposed to do. I have found from personally living that way most of my life, that living like that, we are living away from the truth. That we in fact aren't really living at all.</div>
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I've had more people reach out to me in hard times and confusing times. They are looking for the answers to life. My advise to them always is, to be patient, stay open and the answers will come to you. It's a daily practice and most of all, how bad do you really want it? How much are you willing to work for it? For me, in my journey, I am going to be all in.<br />
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You don't have to have all of the answers. Life will reveal everything you need to know in perfect time. But when you are desperate for anything, you can begin to look for the answers in all the wrong places. Sometimes though, that is a necessary part of the journey. Although I know that is where someone is headed, until they are ready to see that for themselves, they will do it no matter what.</div>
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I know when I got out of my divorce and the failed relationships that followed, I had hit the wall enough to know I couldn't do it anymore. I knew what I wanted in life. Yet, I felt the answers were being revealed to me, from within. I had been making the mistake of thinking I could go outside of myself to find what it was I was looking for. It was a strange yet familiar concept of being guided internally in my decision making. It was the very factor I had been ignoring my entire adult life, so I figured maybe that is where all of the answers lie. And sure enough, it is.</div>
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This article was influenced by a client that I saw recently. We've been talking very much in depth over the last couple of years about her divorce. When I heard she immediately entered into another relationship I cringed. But I knew this was part of her process. I know the importance of figuring out what went wrong in one relationship before entering into another. The importance of taking the time to figure out how we got in the first relationship, why it didn't work for us, and what all we gained and potentially lost along the way. And I learned those lessons from entering into another relationship shortly after my own divorce. We learn from living. As difficult as that can be sometimes, it is just that simple.</div>
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So about two years out, this client's second relationship has ended. Now she is at a major cross roads. She is still grieving and in the confusion of her marriage that is just now getting finalized. And the new relationship, her crutch, is no longer there for her to lean on. She is standing on her own for the first time. And I could feel how terrified she was in doing that. I see her looking for answers. But I do see her in the process of looking for the answers everywhere outside of herself. </div>
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Now don't get me wrong, we have messengers in life bringing us lessons all along the way. If we aren't able and willing to listen to what our hearts are telling us and guiding us to do, we can often times misinterpret what those messengers may be bringing us. If we are not listening to our hearts, we can fall into the same patterns. Only we won't know we're doing it until it's done. Again, sometimes this has to be part of the learning process.</div>
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My client looked at me at one point and said, "I know I'm supposed to listen to my heart. The rational, logical part of me just won't let that happen." I told her, until our hearts become our minds, nothing in life will change. It becomes the pattern of same old, same old.</div>
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I knew as she walked through my door she was wearing her brave face. She talked about an extremely difficult period she just faced as her new relationship failed. She continued to say, "Now that I've got my divorce papers signed, I feel on top of the world." I wanted her to embrace that feeling, but I also wanted her to brace herself for what was to come. In conversations over the last year I've told her you will have good days and bad days. Feel it all. Don't avoid any of those emotions. It will be one of the most difficult things you will do, but in the end it will be one of the best things you can do for your Self. </div>
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So I immediately saw her mask of bravery as she walked through my door. It was a dizzying energy of a forced smile, racing thoughts and statements and a display shown by someone who wanted to just be happy. She is in the search phase. And I get it. What I tried to convey to her even hours later was healing is healing. It is a process. It doesn't matter what it is we are healing from, it is all the same. The most important part is to allow yourself the time to heal. Everything and everyone else that doesn't serve that purpose is just a distraction. The most important part of entering into any new relationship whether it be a friendship or romantic is being able to offer your whole Self. Because if we're not bringing that to the table, we and the other person are getting the short end of the deal.</div>
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Our journey back to ourselves can be a long one. It is our intention to get back that counts. We will slip and fall, curl up and hold out. But it is the intention of finding our hearts again and the meaning behind it all that matters. We are all just doing our best. We do what we know. Once we accept the journey and let go of the exact out come, that is when the real work starts. Miracles happen. </div>
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We will yo-yo back and forth in our daily decisions. We will have days of the highest highs followed by days of our lowest lows. We don't have to pretend. We only have to remember to love. Love in the moment, love what is and love the lessons that life continues to bring. That is how we can always find our way.</div>
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Share with us your journey of Self discovery. What obstacles have you faced? How did you learn to shed your mask of bravery and get down to the heart of what matters? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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Jennifer Fremionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11650691095184575423noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5165799822070288460.post-62736584435169493872013-10-13T04:58:00.000-07:002013-10-13T04:58:02.229-07:00A Sunday Message: Lean On<div style="text-align: center;">
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I've been reflecting a lot lately. About where life has taken me in my past, the lessons I have learned in both happiness and pain, and the exciting ride I continue to take with each new day. The one constant that has shown in all of these moments is Faith. Leaning into it and leaning on it, in everything I do. </div>
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Through Dr. Wayne Dyer's gracious writings, I was blessed with the lesson of learning about the Divine that resides in each of us. The light that never fades no matter how many times we've willingly or unwillingly tried to dim it. The light that prevails through everything. The power within us that never allows us to give up, no matter how tough life's lessons become. </div>
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Lean into each moment by leaning on Faith. Knowing that inside of each of us resides that eternal light. A force of nature to be reckoned with. Never allow yourself to settle. Having Faith allows us to understand that life will bring us the people, things, and opportunities we need in any given moment. They are all of our teachers. No matter if they bring us more lightness or are a shadow figure, we will learn something. About them, about life, and even more so, about ourselves.</div>
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What is before us is exactly what we need. And if we follow Faith's lead, we know we will always be taken care of. I wrote an article awhile back called, <i>An Answered Prayer.</i> An answered prayer is the beauty that aligns us with reassurance that we know what we need and that it is not just about what we want. The flip side to that is an unanswered prayer. These arise from us knowing what we want, but the Universe knowing better and gracing us with exactly what we need.</div>
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When we lose Faith we can become a wrecking ball to our own lives and even to those around us. Having Faith, gives us the knowing and the know how to move forward with grace no matter what has trailed us in our past. Each lesson is a new beginning. Our perception changes as we grow into these new beginnings. As we see our own truth more clearly. Trust that you have already arrived and yet you are still on your way. </div>
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I mentioned a few articles ago about this week's alter question for my yoga teacher training. <i> If fear wasn't an option...? </i>It was interesting how we all interpreted the question differently. And it was even more refreshing when one of my instructor's said, "There is no right or wrong way to answer this." This question really got me thinking. The funny thing was by Sunday, I had a revelation. I had yet to come up with an answer to this question for Tuesday's class. I realized that for the first time in my life, I am actually living and living big. Everything I ever wanted to be doing in life I am actually doing or I am in the process of working towards. I get to work with my clients with my business, I get to go to work everyday as a nurse, I have Spirit Launcher which inspires me to reflect on my daily living through my writing, and now I have my yoga teacher training that is deepening my spiritual practice. I am in service everyday. Life is good, even in the times when it turns sour.</div>
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I've suffered a lot of disappointments, set backs and down right devastation in my life. Looking back though, without these trials, I wouldn't be who and where I am today. It is in those tough times that show me what I am made of. They allow my God light to really shine through. Those are the moments where I have been reminded even when my eyes couldn't see, the abundant strength in which I am held every moment of every day. These trials also shine an even brighter light on my triumphs. </div>
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I've learned to embrace fear and failure as part of life. I'm not so quick to judge myself by my actions and reactions. As a matter of fact my internal dialogue is completely different than even a couple of years ago. I used to beat myself up over the littlest things. And now, it's just a brush off of the shoulder. I get back up and try it again. We are only learning after all. </div>
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Perfection is a dream robber. If our goal is perfection instead of our best, then disappointment is going to be waiting around the corner for us on all areas of the map. But if we are leaning towards doing our best in the moment, instead of needing perfection, we brush ourselves off. We reset in the next moment as if the other never really mattered. </div>
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This weeks yoga class was extremely challenging. I wasn't physically feeling my best. But I was able to still get lost within the postures and movements and give it my all. My practice has allowed me the freedom within my own mind and carrying over to my body to just let go and do it. It may not be pretty and it could even be quite messy, but the beauty lies within just doing it. I'm not a fixture on the sidelines any more. I want to be the star player when it comes to my life. My intention is never perfection. My intention is in the commitment of doing. It doesn't have to be my best work. It just has to be my best effort in that very moment.</div>
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Life will bring us lemons. That is just a simple fact of life. They are our trials to date. We need the sweet and the sour, the ups and downs, the peaks and the valleys. It is what makes life unpredictable and full of surprises. It is how we handle each delivery that determines what we get from it all. What will our take away be? Bitter or sweet? So don't wish them away or wish them not to happen. Look for the lessons they bring and your inner strength that is revealed. You will get to know a new part of yourself through the challenge. Add a little sweetness to the sour spots in life. This is how we settle the task and move on to what next is waiting for us behind each new sunrise.</div>
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How have you dealt with your own sour spots in life? What did you learn about yourself? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers! Today is another community meditation. Each week we join together to celebrate ourselves, our lives and each other. I've talked lately about how I'm growing into sharing my story and my life through spoken word. The transition from written word to spoken word has not been easy for me. And in fact, I've always struggled expressing myself vocally. But each week with my yoga teacher training, little by little, my voice becomes more steady and able to be heard. I remind myself constantly through this process, to be patient because I AM growing.<br />
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So before class yesterday, I practiced a chakra meditation focusing on my throat energy center. In Sanskrit it is called Vishuddha, the center of expression. I wanted to clear any blocks that may prevent me from speaking my truth. I want to share my inner voice with the world. So this is the meditation I will share with you today!<br />
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Please find a comfortable seated position. Close your eyes and rest your hands palms facing up on you legs. Take a few long, deep breaths in and release. Feel the air fill your lung space with each inhale and then feel that space empty with each exhale.<br />
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Jennifer Fremionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11650691095184575423noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5165799822070288460.post-1119424292146458672013-10-07T04:22:00.000-07:002013-10-07T04:22:52.772-07:00Some Other Way<div style="text-align: center;">
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This past Saturday marked my 9th year in business for my skin care spa. It was hard to believe so many years have gone by since my ideas were just dreams written on paper in a note book. I began to look back at all of the years that have gone by. The very beginning and the struggle to get the business going. Then the moment in which it took flight. Launching a dream is never simple. It will always come with its ups and downs. All that is needed is a heart full of love, commitment and faith. Lean into any and all of the opportunities as far as each one will take you. Understanding that you are being led every step of the way, takes the pressure of worry off your shoulders and allows you to focus on what is important. Your promise of purpose.</div>
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Saturday was a very special day for me. My very first client of the day was one of my very first clients that ever walked through my door. She has been with me and supported me every step of the way. She knows my entire story both professionally and personally. This got me thinking about how I gave up the opportunity to move to a big city to do this work. Yet this new opportunity came my way and I grabbed it and never looked back. Beyond all of the naysayers, the doubters, and the people who simply didn't understand, my mission was clear. This was the love I went after, after attempting to fulfill someone elses dream for six years in college. This was my dream to begin to live. And although in the beginning fear stopped me in my tracks, the Universe rerouted that dream right back to me.</div>
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That's the amazing thing about life. I've said it many times, that no matter what, we are abundantly supported. If fear stops us in our tracks, the Universe will send the lesson back to us in some other way. It may not look the same, smell the same, or feel the same. But underneath it all, it is our own gift of fulfillment given back to us for another try.</div>
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The miracles that occur in my life everyday are simply undeniable anymore. Something very cool happened yesterday. My dad said to me, "What is that thing you wanted to teach me?" He then looks up an old text on his phone from months ago, of a mantra meditation that I tried to teach him when he was making a difficult professional decision. He blew it off back then and called it hocus-pocus. But today, he was open. My life has transformed in the last year and a half to the point to where most people no longer question my methods. Because they see that whatever it is that I'm doing, is working. And working well. So I taught him again the very meditation I attempted to teach him months ago. This time, he was willing and therefore able. He was willing to lean on faith and therefore able to receive the messages being delivered his way. When we choose faith in something bigger than ourselves, that is when the light of a miracle can be let in. When we continue to let that crack in our heart become bigger, the light is then able to radiate, allowing continuous miracles to occur.</div>
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I was explaining to a friend last week that the celebration is approaching for a particular Guru. It is believed that if you celebrate his life up until his birthday and upon his birthday ask him for something, then he must grant it. I thought this was a fun and intriguing story. My friend's response however was, "Well wishes don't come true. And if you are going to ask for something, don't ask to find love because I've tried that and it doesn't work. The wish never came true. It's all a joke." I could see him tensing from across the table. This clearly hit a nerve with him. I don't have his background story on why this upset him to this degree, but I can guess just by his daily actions what went wrong. The problem with making a wish about a particular person or having to have a definitive outcome is that you are not being open to what life is willing to give you. So of course that wish more than likely will not come true. But when we release the wish as open ended to the Universe with no attachment, we allow the Universe to do her thing and bring us our fortune just as it is intended for us. It is the attachment to outcome, the inability to lose control over matters that keep us stuck and impede our growth. </div>
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This week for my yoga course we were assigned a question. <i>What would we do if failure wasn't an option?</i> If fear wasn't a factor, what would we grant ourselves permission to do or be in life? I have always loved this question because it gets down to the heart of all things. This immediately got me thinking, of course. The fear of failure has run rampant in my life from a very early age. I lost my ability to express myself as a child. My parents had a very practical standpoint. It is better to have a safe bet than to take a risk of something not working out. Dreams were meant to be dreamt and then, you woke up to reality. I was an extremely creative child. Yet the creativity largely went unnoticed. So I shut down. My dreams were so colorful in my mind. I just thought that the reality of them happening wasn't a possibility. So I daydreamed a lot! I lost my outer voice. I also lost the inner voice of love towards myself. The moment I gained that ability back in my early twenties, I met my ex-husband. And then the familiar pattern continued.</div>
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Fear was instilled in us with everything we did growing up. We were expected to follow a certain path in order to be "successful". The formula for life was, you went to college, you got a job that paid the bills, and that was life. It took me six long years to graduate with my bachelor's degree because it wasn't what my heart was telling me I needed to do. And although my parent's always did their best and had our best interests at heart, they didn't know how to lead us to fulfill our dreams in life. In fact, it was simply believed to be a childish thought to have a dream and dreams were meant to be given up on. Their philosophy was if you get a good steady paying job then you never have to struggle in life. Parents want to know that their children are well taken care of even after they have left the home. What they didn't realize for me, the struggle was not being able to spread my wings and live within my own creative nature.</div>
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I still remember advice given to me from a college professor of mine. She said to me during a meeting, "Why aren't you going into professional writing? This is clearly what you are supposed to be doing. You love every minute of it. I'm confused as to why you aren't pursuing this?" My response, "My parents told me to go to school to be a teacher. I wanted to be a music teacher, but they told me I'd never make enough money doing that. So now I'm in general education and I can't stand it. But I don't have a choice." Her response to that was, "Who is paying for your school?" I told her that I was paying for it myself. She said, "Then you do have a choice. And what are you waiting for?"</div>
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Fifteen years later, I remember that conversation like it was yesterday. She was right. Finally, my last year of college I decided to take my life back. This was my life and it was mine to do what I wish. So I fulfilled a different dream of going to school for skin care. I felt the momentum building in my life as I completed the course with flying colors. However, I was in a relationship that soon would become my marriage. The offers of moving to a big city through connections of my instructor's caused the fear to settled in. The self talk started up of what if I fail, what if I move across the country and I don't become successful, what if I get out there and I'm just not good enough? And then the momentum stopped. I clipped my own wings again, purely because of the fear factor of failure.</div>
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It took a good portion of my adult life of picking up the pieces of my shattered heart that I had been a willing participant in, to finally figure out that fear and failure are all a part of life. And in fact the more you fear something, the more you have to push yourself to do it. Often times, it is your own calling that is signalling to you that now is the time. The fear threshold is there to be walked over. It doesn't always happen gracefully, but that is totally fine. Just as long as you get to the other side of fear, a new unfolding in life is waiting there for you. You will be tried and tested. It is all part of this amazing process.</div>
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It has been my mission especially the past year and a half to push myself beyond my fear threshold. Every time I've met it there, I've come out on the other side with the reward of being alive in life and what is next to come. It's not easy to look fear in the face and say bring it on! But let your heart race, become dizzy and shaking, become terrified in the challenge of knowing that it is just that, a challenge. And what awaits you on the other side is something spectacular. In your own momentum you will build a strength of faith, trust and knowing that this is all part of the process. What we live out is what we learn about ourselves. Fear is a test that can show us abilities deeply residing within us that have been waiting to come out, be seen and be used. It is developing our strongest sense of self.</div>
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This week's assignment will be an interesting one for me. So I'm going to dig deep this next week. Maybe there is a forgotten dream that I need to bring back to life. My mission in dealing with fear has included understanding the process of pursuing a dream and living life always has a fear element and the possibility of failure. It is what we take with us in those moments that carry us to our fortune, our destiny. They bring us back to our original Self.</div>
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So if failure wasn't an option, what would you be doing? And if you haven't started, what is holding you back? How could you get closer to loosening your own restraints and going for it? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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One week ago I had the pleasure of meeting all of my yoga teachers. Yes there are two instructors for the course, yet I was sitting in a room full of not just my yoga-mates and two instructors, but all of my new teachers. Not only will we all get to know one another very closely through the course, but through getting to know each other, we will deepen our knowing of ourselves. There are maybe fifteen or so of us all together and there was an immediate warmth to the atmosphere. A huge part of it was the openness of my instructor Dani. She immediately informed us that this class was meant to expand our knowledge on yoga and meditation, but it was also to help us get rid of "all of our shit" in order to do so. With that statement, I had butterflies thinking about how this class is going to deepen my life in so many ways.</div>
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I began writing my first book at the first of the year. As I was expanding on the chapters something just didn't feel complete. Something told me that taking this yoga course would give me the completion to my book. I believe wholeheartedly that it is going to help to deliver a deeper sense of completion in my life. </div>
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Spirit Launcher has broadened my bravery as I express my inner most experiences and knowledge of my own life, every day with friends, family and perfect strangers. It has allowed me to stand in my truth even more honestly than I ever have before. As we went around the room in last Tuesday's class, we introduced ourselves and told a snippet of our own stories. What brought us to the class, what life was like before our practice, where we are now and where we wish to go within it. </div>
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On my way home from the class, I realized that I had the opportunity to speak about my life. I'm so used to writing about it, it almost seemed foreign to talk about how I came to be where I am. It then occurred to me, that this experience is going to enable me to tell my story out loud. My written voice is one thing. I love being gifted each new day material to share with the world. But speaking, brings an entirely different element. One of my goals is to begin lecturing about my own life experiences. Clearly, this is where I'm being led to next.</div>
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This class will be full of surprises. I could never predict what all will come of this course. But I will predict it is another stepping stone in my promise of purpose. It will be an even bigger heart opener. And I am ready to receive and deliver. My written voice can say what it needs to say. Now my spoken voice will learn to do the same. I no longer have to hold back. I can find the freedom to break through all of my constraints. I can find comfort, within the newness of telling my story out loud. Now, it can be seen and now it will be heard. </div>
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Our voices are our life's song. I am no longer too fearful to sing out loud. To be the voice that is heard. To be the message behind that voice. This is me, standing in my truest self. As the message during meditation told me a few weeks ago, <i>"You're just getting started", </i>I am ecstatic with where I've been, with where I am in this very moment, and with where it is I will be going. For my life's concert, I have the best seat in the house.</div>
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How do you show yourself out loud? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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It's taken me a long time to get here. To be in the space of acceptance of my truest Self. To want to be in front of the crowd instead of hiding in back of the crowd. My life is a message that needs to be delivered. I want to be seen and to be heard. To be comfortable enough within my own discomfort to tell and live my own story. And what a story it is. </div>
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To be who I am after all, is the very person I've always wanted to be. To cut through the heartache, disappointment and shadows, in order to see the light and to live within my own awakening. This is the life that was intended for me all along. This was the life I so much wanted to believe existed, but always feared too much to be able to explore the possibilities in order to find out.</div>
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The development of Self is life's journey. Through life we are taught and pick up habits that do not serve our purpose. This brings us further and further away from our given plan. But the seed of creative force is within us all along. It is our heartbeat, our breath, it is the very spirit that resides inside each one of us, that enables us to be alive. It enables us to reroute to our given path when we are ready to get back to where it is that we've originally come from.</div>
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My awakening began with a belief. A belief that life was intended to be better than what I had settled for. I've talked in length in previous articles about my sacrifice of Self made in entering into an abusive marriage that ensued emotional grief so great, I felt my life leaving my own body. My spirit however, was the driving force of resuscitation that never allowed me to completely give up and give in to the shadows. My spirit, was the very thing that kept me alive.</div>
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I've become reminiscent lately as next month marks the third anniversary of my survival. This was the biggest leap of faith I have ever taken. I left behind my old life and prayed for something better. I had no idea what was in store for me. Looking back, there was nothing easy about this venture. There was no guaranteed outcome. The only comfort was in knowing that life could only get better from where I was. The choice was purely up to me.</div>
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So I got to work. The serious work started after graduating with my nursing degree. At that point there were no distractions or obligations. Life was going on and I needed to get back in the game. How, you might ask? I began to finally listen to my heart. The very thing that is our inner guide and has all of the answers, just happened to be the very thing I ignored time and time again. It was a matter of the heart, plain and simple. I had created a habit in life of having an idea of what I wanted. So if what or who I had in my life wasn't what my heart was telling me I needed, I would try to manipulate, control, conform, imagine even, that what I had was exactly what I wanted. I fought my heart's guidance tooth and nail. At the end of the fight, I always lost. My life changed as soon as I finally accepted what it was to actually listen. </div>
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So I stopped trying to be who I wasn't and doing things that didn't serve my greater purpose. I listened and I followed. I finally allowed myself to be guided in my own direction. It was my very heart that brought me to the heart of my Self. It was the point of me finally being me. </div>
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The evolution of the heart is never a small feat. It is our greatest encounter. It connects us to the truth, to all that we are created to be, and our great Creator himself. When we break through all that blocks us from the light, we can then see our own way. Clarity becomes a way of living. Asking for guidance from our deepest adviser becomes the way to live. You being you, becomes the only life worth living.</div>
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How has connecting with your truth changed your life? Share with us, we would love to hear from you!</div>
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Happy Wednesday Spirit Launchers! We are back for another week of community meditation. Today's meditation is about setting an intention for our day. It's a perfect way to wake up, feel more vibrant and vital to today's work. <br />
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Find your quiet space. For this meditation I like to light three small candles in front of me. I like using a mantra as well. One of my favorites is the "I Am..." mantra. Anything you wish to see or be more of in life, put the words "I am" in front of the phrase. Concentrate on the feeling the mantra gives you. How would it actually feel in your life for the intention to be fulfilled? Initiating the feeling, creates an energetic flow to the Universe. After that, it is in the Universe's hands and everything gets to work for our greater good. You will feel a shift not only inside of your being, but all around you.<br />
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I will share with you one of my favorite "I Am" mantras. I use this quite frequently especially in new situations or just as I am getting ready to go to work for the day. Please sit in a comfortable crossed leg position. Put your hands, palms facing up on your knees, ready to receive the vibrant light of the day. Close your eyes and take a few deep breaths in and out through your nose. Focus your sight from your mind's eye, the empty space between your eyebrows. You can choose to repeat the mantra below or choose your own. Just as any decision in life, the choice is always yours.<br />
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Many blessings,</div>
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