Life happens in perfect timing.
Don't be concerned about what doesn't happen
and why. Focus on what is happening now. Knowing
that if what is to be will happen in the future,
it will happen in the best of timing.
So I have hit a bump in the road. As you all may know, I was preparing for yoga teacher training to begin this weekend. Planning for this course has not been easy. I found out about the course shortly after I started my new nursing position. I knew it would be a challenge working my two jobs and then adding a third component to my schedule that was equivalent to another part time job. But I knew I wanted to learn about this love of mine more deeply so I researched and started to plan.
Once I had the actual schedule and details I asked my supervisor if it would be possible to work around the class schedule once a month. She replied, "As much as I don't want to say this, I have to say no because I just don't think this is the right time to make any changes to your schedule." I was disappointed yet, I understood. And in a sense I was relieved because it was going to be a very heavy load on top of everything else I was doing. So I emailed the instructor of the class and told her what my supervisor had said and followed with this statement, "The Universe clearly has something else in mind for me at this time." My instructor's reply kind of shocked me. She said how shocked she was at my supervisor's response and told me, "You are meant to be in this class. Don't give up. I will pray for you and you keep praying for this. I know this is your time." Although I appreciated her determination and understanding of my passion for this practice, I was thrown off by her response because I felt my intuition was telling me something different. But at the same time I really wanted to take this class.
I've learned the hard way about what I call Universal Code. If you go against what the Universe has planned for you, you're asking for a lot of heart ache and disappointment. If you listen and work with the Universe, it's not that you won't have challenges, you will just know how to better gauge your situations and make more purposeful decisions in life.
So I examined what my instructor said. I marked the weekends off my calendar for the course and I started talking as if I was going to take the class even though I had been told no. I continued to pray. And it seemed a little over a week ago that things were actually changing. My supervisor came to me to talk and said we will soon need to make some adjustments to my schedule due to extra hours I would be working on certain days. So I asked if it would be okay to make the adjustments now so I wouldn't miss out on the opportunity of the yoga course. To my surprise she said yes to my request. I was elated! However, this meant I had less then one week to plan for the yoga course. But I was willing and able to try to make it happen.
Then last night happened. I talked with my instructor because it was brought up that there would be housing available for out of town students to stay. Well because I was registering so late all of the housing was taken. This meant the added expense of a hotel. After crunching numbers for an hour I realized this just wasn't going to work. This was my bump in the road. Then a woman so graciously opened her home to me. The problem was I was already driving a significant way to the course and because she did not live near to the venue, this meant even more driving for which I had not anticipated. Something just didn't feel right at this point.
I felt that overwhelming feeling of really wanting something so badly and coming to realize now really just isn't the time. I'm not going to lie, I cried. I cried a lot actually. I can't remember the last time I have cried out of disappointment to be quite honest. Which brought me to discover this.
My life is at peace. A peace I have just newly really been able to enjoy. My life is full of exciting new mini adventures every day. But I am so happy and at peace with who and where I am. I was able to thank Dr. Wayne Dyer personally awhile back for the inner peace his work has brought into my life. Words could never be big enough to express what his work has done for me. But living this life that I have now is thank you enough to the Universe.
Could I exhaust myself physically, mentally and financially in order to make this happen right now? Of course I could. I wrote the article, The Rush for this very reason. There is no reason to rush. What is happening right now is all that we need. What we plan for the future either will or will not be. All we can do is be willing because the Universe knows when we are able. I am willing to walk into my fear and tackle the challenges that is this yoga course. The Universe knows I am able to do it as well. Now, is just not the time. I want to be able to enjoy every second of this course. I don't want to be bogged down with worrying about how tired I will be from over working myself and if I will have enough money for a very large unexpected expense. So I will wait until the time is right. There will be another class. I do not know when exactly that will be. I don't have to be concerned about that right now. What I do know is I am in love with this life I have in this very moment. And I will live it to the fullest. With each new day another door opens. Even though the door to this yoga class has been cracked open, I will know in perfect time when this door will open fully.
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